I'm Not O - FUCKING - KAY!!!!!

~ My Chemical Romance, I'm Not Okay

What I'm having right now is a bitter taste-test of the future. With Ellie off at College already, any time that Tammy is taken into respite, I get a bitter taste-test of what is to come.It hurts. Every time that I see her is a painful reminder that time is ticking away and it's only a matter of time before she's stolen for good, and every time that she's not there... it's like she's already left. And n matter what, there's still the burning question in my heart and constantly on my mind.

Why me?

Everyone says that I have to look at it as it's the best thing for her, that I should put my studies first and care about a the future. But to me, the future doesn't exist. All that lies ahead is further blood, sweat, tears, heartbreak and regrets of how  i could have fought harder, I could have kept her. But there's always the future, apparently, there's always a light at the end of the tunnel, there just HAS TO BE! Well fuck you. Somebody go fuck life. I don't give a fuck about what HAS TO BE, because guess what, I once believed that. I once believed in God. I once believed that there was a way out, and if I tried hard enough, I'd find the exit. Well... it didn't happen. Enough people have thrown all of their venomous lies at me, so here's the open invitation - FINISH ME OFF!!! Here's a few quotes from the best band to ever exist, just to sum up how I feel.

So gimme all your poison
And gimme all your pills
And gimme all your hopeless hearts and MAKE ME ILL!!!!!!!
You're running after something that you'll never kill
If this is WHAT YOU WANT then FIRE AT WILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~ My Chemical Romance, Thank You for the Venom

But nobody cares if you're losing yourself -
AM I LOSING MYSELF?!?!!!
Oh I miss my mom!
Will they give me the chair?
Or a lethal injection?
Or a swing from a rope if you DARE!
Oh, nobody knows, ALL THE TROUBLE I HAVE SEEN!!!

~ My Chemical Romance, You know what they do to guys like us in prison

I'm okay
I'M OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm okay now
I'M OKAY NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But you REALLY NEED TO LISTEN TO ME
BECAUSE I'M TELLING YOU THE TRUTH
I MEAN THIS - I'M OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Trust me -
I'M NOT OKAY!!!!!!!!
I'M NOT OKAY!!!!!!!!!!
NO, I'M NOT OKAY
I'M NOT O - FUCKING - KAY!!!!!!!!!!!
I'M NOT OKAY!!!!!!!!!
I'M NOT OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~ My Chemical Romance, I'm Not Okay

Would you carry me to the end?

~ My Chemical Romance, To The End

I don't care how much you'll invest yourself in me
We're not working out
And you won't keep my brother
And you won't fuck my friends

~ My Chemical Romance, Honey, This mirror isn't big enough for the two of us

And someone save my soul tonight,
Please save my soul

~ My Chemical Romance, Vampires will never hurt you

And I think I'll blow my brains against the ceiling
And as the fragments of my skull begin to fall
Fall on your tongue like pixie dust
Just think happy thoughts
And we'll fly home

~ My Chemical Romance, Headfirst for Halos