Depression
Grab the blade
Free my soul
Lost my way
Once again
Throw my head
On a knife
Life’s gone sour
The darkness hour
Stuck in a moment
Of hating times
Looking for
A fast way out
Run away
Live in shame
A strike to the throat
Could end my pain
Hang my head
Hit the road
The gallows pole
Could free my soul
Throw me a pack of aspirin
Can it end the hell I’m in?
Long for the knife
To end this life
In the dead of night
The tortured soul
In hatred times
Gives one last howl
Touch me now
Before I go
Come to watch
My colours show
Hold the dagger
In my hand
My tortured cry
Rips through the land
Watch me run
Hear me scream
As I cry
The devil’s smile gleams
My life has no meaning
I can’t stop screaming
Grab the gun
My end has begun
I plunge the knife
Into my chest
My tortured soul
Will finally rest
Dying
Call my name
But am I breathing?
Or did I die?
I don’t know any more
Emotions are numb
Are you still there?
Or did you go?
Does it really matter any more?
Can you hear me?
Or only silence?
Am I still real?
Or just your imagination?
Breathe into me life
If you wish me to stay
For with these final words
I take my last breath
Frozen Flame
My demons are wild
They will not tame
They set me on fire
With frozen flame
I run with my fear
From nightmares untold
But hatred surrounds
And my future turns cold
The gremlins run loose
And shall never tame
They made my soul numb
With frozen flame
The hags on my trail
Haunted all my life
They’re killing my soul
Corrupted by strife
For now I am dead
My demons to blame
For I burned to death
From frozen flame
Ghost
I reach my hand out to you
A tear escapes my eye
But you cannot see me
My breath lingers on the glass
I scream your name so loudly
But you cannot hear me
My hand still grasps your shoulder
I still shake your shirt front
But you cannot feel me
I pull my hair out in frustration
I cry until there is nothing left to cry
But you cannot notice me
For I am a ghost
I am just a shadow of what I once was
A corpse inside a living body
For I am a ghost
I am not who I once was
In agony so much I have gone numb
For I am a ghost
Caress me in your nightmares
Salvation is a careless, long-lost daydream
Hello
Hello?
Did you call?
There’s nobody at home right now
Life
It scares me
It pushes you around like you don’t matter
People
Always so naïve
They never notice when you’re dying inside
Death
My only mercy
The only way out of this never-ending nightmare
Pain
It never goes
It looms over me like a vulture to a corpse
God
Does he care?
Does he even exist at all?
Heroes
There are none
Nobody can catch you when you fall so far
Cold
I am burning
The frozen flames burn your soul to nothing
Light
Just another mirage
Always extinguished before you can reach it
Hate
Another cruel weapon
Life always stabs you with it with relish
Truth
Always so painful
To tell it is to stab you with a dagger
Broken
I am wounded
So damaged that I can never truly be repaired
Hello
Haven’t you heard?
My emotions killed me long ago
Invisible Imaginary
Imagine me
Forgotten child
And I exist
Visible to only you
Remember me
And I am seen
But only by you
And then I am gone
Hold out your hand
And our fingers touch
But pull them away
And I disappear
Talk to me
And you give me life
But forget me a moment
And you lose me forever
For am I invisible?
Or simply imaginary?
For the difference
I do not know
My Enemy
This enemy
I cannot defeat
This enemy
Is out of reach
This enemy
Is too far away
This enemy
Is a corpse inside
This enemy
Knows my every move
This enemy
Knows all my secrets
This enemy
Is as fragile as I
This enemy
Has given up hope
This enemy
Does not want to live
This enemy
Feels so cold
This enemy
Is so alone
This enemy
Is in fatal freefall
This enemy
Is blinded by fears
This enemy
Cried out for help
This enemy
Was forsaken
This enemy
Longed for rescue
This enemy
Did not belong
This enemy
Did not feel loved
This enemy
Had no control
This enemy
Longs for inexistent peace
This enemy
Is myself
My Heart Speaking
Do I still breathe?
Or did I die?
Because I am
A corpse inside
Do you see me?
Or do you not?
Am I real?
Or simply imaginary?
When we touch
Do I feel cold?
Or feel flames
Of ashen hell?
I doubt my existence
Within this world
I’m out of touch
And cannot return
My Last Goodbye
Dear fallen soul
Why did you leave me?
Here for so long
And now you go
Would you forsake me
And leave me alone?
Do I have the strength
To let you go?
I am so cold
Without you now
If I tried to let go
Would I know how?
And when I rejoin you
At the end of the charade
Will you help me join
The black parade?
Please still be waiting
On the other side
Please don’t forget
This last goodbye
My Life
Falling
Lost in this nightmare
Tumbling
Spiralling out of control
Crying
I have lost all sense of hope
Frightening
Too paranoid to hold on
Flying
Like a bat back to hell
Dancing
Darting in and out of the hellfires
Screaming
My words cannot be heard
Sprinting
Under attack from the unreal
Blinking
Lose the tears that show my weakness
Burning
Broken dreams and endless yearning
Dreaming
Screaming for the weary sunrise
Dying
Sinking to the silent final sleep
Numb
Hello
Where are you?
Who are you?
You’re too far out of reach
Numb
Thoughts consume me
Feelings consume me
Letting go of my last breath is too hard
No
I’m not scared of dying
All my life spent crying
But still I feel so impossibly alone
Hello
Do you hear me?
Are you still there?
Does feeling alive inside really matter any more?
Sleep
Sleep
Only secrets will
Keep
Should my nightmares be
Real
Numb so I cannot
Feel
Life is only a
Dream
So much pain can I
Scream?
I sin so I am not
Clean
Tell me what does life
Mean?
Up so high will I
Fall?
Do you really care at
All?
Are these visions all
Fake?
Is life just a
Mistake?
Terror rips through my
Land
This is out of my
Hand
Is this really the
End?
I do not
Comprehend?
I’m crazy out of my
Head
Am I better off
Dead?
Am I out of my
Mind?
Who have I left
Behind?
Crazy secrets life won’t
Keep
All I want to do is
Sleep
Soulless
Freefalling through flames
Without my soul
Although I am on fire
I am so cold
I reach for the light
But then it turns black
In all of this pressure
I quickly cracked
Coercing the demons
Into sacred silent sleep
With self-indulgent darkness
My secrets shall keep
A demon in my heart
On my shoulder sits a vulture
My pain has left its mark
All the torture of my culture
Lost in my freefall
Stuck in my nightmare
Reach for the saviour
But he does not care
If what they say is true
Then my nightmares are real
I have become so numb
With all this pain I cannot feel
The skeletal hand plunged through
And stilled my beating heart
Rescue is just a dream
That I have known right from the start
A knife within my chest
Eyes blinded with my tears
Estranged from everyone
Come true are all my darkest fears
The horrors came to pass
In filthy sin: I am not clean
Another tear has left my eyes
Escape is just a dream
Pass me psychological aspirin
For the burning wreck in which I dwell
I cannot breathe in ashen cloud
I am forced to live in hell
Find the place I want the most
In all the wretched throng
Searching for what I long for:
A place where I belong
Gone are all the joyful thoughts
Of love and place and hope
Every mortal being tells
That I cannot cope
Careless are the empty thoughts
Endless is the nightmare
Caress my pain with numbness
Lest my life seems less unfair
Drowning in the darkness
Spiralling into heartbreak
Falling through my shame
Any more pain I cannot take
Squinting in the blinding darkness
Trying not to feel my pain
My own blood upon my hands
And it is a killer’s stain
When prospects of my life are bleak
Then I trade away my mistakes
Kill the cause of what I’ve done
Before another heart I break
Marooned in hopelessness
Deserted in despair
Because everyone left me
Solo to fight all the nightmares
Sprinting out of nightmares
Just to face another
Trapped inside of this life
I would trade for any other
Searching for a saviour
Calling for a hero
No-one is responding
Reactions are zero
Looking to the mirror
I detest the thing I see
All I see is a monster
That is impersonating me
Look into my hopeless eyes
And see that I am lost
Hopelessness is all I know
But I do not know the cost
Love and hope have abandoned me
And reunion is a lie
Pain and despair took over
And are too strong to defy
Fighting off the hate
Assistance called while I was out
Desolation of the soul
Has filled my mind with thoughts of doubt
Dreams of salvation were dreamt
But crushed to ash before my eyes
I have no more prayer left
Spare me from the sight of another sunrise
Calls were made to God
But every time I was denied
Desperate for peace
I answered it with suicide
Rubber Shavings
Where do all the rubber shavings go?
Have you seen? Where do they go?
Do they go down the drain?
Or out to sea?
Or take a train?
Or go up a tree?
And do they have parents?
Or how were thay made?
And where do they work?
And how are they paid?
So next time you make shavings
And they're about to get hurled
Spare a moment, a thought
For thier own little world
Last Parade
Welcome to the Last Parade
Jaded as we start to fade
Listen now 'cause here's your choice
Black Surrender or Lose Your Voice
'Angels' with thier twisted smiles
Liars number you one files
Halos shattered on the ground
Salvation never comes to town
Children with thier sad façade
Victims of the Last Parade
Prizoners fading into black
Never to be carried back
Venom, menace in thier smile
Bloddstained tortures on the turnstile
Revenge, the single hope, so sweet
A metter we could never meet
You see that I am no pretender
I could not give them Black Surrender
Acknowleging that, and with 'no choice'
From my own throat they stole my voice
And when I scream, I make no sound
Scars no longer temporary wounds
These scars are always for forever
Like autumn leaves are changing colour
So watch me, such a sad façade
I drag you to the Last Parade
So treasure close your hopeless heart
That's what they'll shatter at the start
