My Songs..

Like poetry, this is just another release for me, but this is more to say what I need to say to certain people.

Let You Down

Believe me

Life is darker than it seems

Secret Bleeding

In the shadows of my heart

Make Believing

I’m okay so that you can sleep another night away

‘It’s okay’

I claim so you don’t have to cry

Part resenting

The fact that you don’t have to try

To feel okay, but I won’t let you take the blame,

Pour all the hatred on my name

No, it’s not easy

Yes, I didn’t want to go

I’m gonna drown, so let me say this

I never wanted to let you down

Deceiving

So you never have to cry

Reach me

So we don’t have to say goodbye

Always dreaming

Of the fantasy way out, but I know now I just don’t know how

All the mistakes I made will never truly fade away

Concealing

My darkest feelings from your sight

Believe me

It’s not easy but I think it’s right

You cannot release me

Trust me on this one, you cannot take

The pain that forced my heart to break

Yes, I may have made mistakes, but this is not another one

I promise you

No, it’s not easy

Yes, I didn’t want to go

I’m gonna drown, so let me say this

I never wanted to let you down

And I know you might not believe me

And I know you cannot release me

And you trusted me so deeply

But I couldn’t help with breaking down

No, I know that it’s not easy

And I never wanted to go

But now I know I’m gonna drown

Yes, you win, you wear the criwn

I just wanted you to know

I never wanted to let you down

I never planned on letting you down

Please forgive me, but

I never wanted to let you down

You Are Now

Drowning under the weight of my screams

But you can’t hear a thing

So obsessed with what you think

That you can’t see me bleed

Pressure breaking my defences

But you can’t think past yourself

Tears still streaming from my eyes

So much that I can’t think

(You push me away)

(I’m pushed away)

So hear me now

Watch me drown

And see the damage of your selfishness

Don’t turn your back

Now I have cracked

Feel the guilt of all your actions

Stop and stare

Look in my eyes

And see the truth in what I’m saying

Think of me

Now I don’t breathe

And see how alone that you are now

Glaring at me in denial

You can’t believe that I am gone

Frowning at my frantic moves

You don’t get that I can’t carry on

Demons taking my heart over

But you can’t see a single change

Unable to take all of my pain

You pour your hatred on my name

(I’m pushed away)

So hear me now

Watch me drown

And see the damage of your selfishness

Don’t turn your back

Now I have cracked

Feel the guilt of all your actions

Stop and stare

Look in my eyes

And see the truth in what I’m saying

Look at yourself

Look deep inside

And look at everything that you are now

Stop pushing me away!

How do you think I got this way?

With all the hatred and abuse

Your words were never any use

GO AWAY!

So hear me now

And watch me drown

And see the damage of all you selfishness

Don’t turn your back

Because I cracked

Feel the endless guilt of every action

Stop and stare

Stare in my eyes

You can’t fight the truth in what I’m saying

Now you’re alone

And on your own

You hate everything that you are now

(See how alone that you are now)

(Look at everything that you are now)

You hate everything that you are now!